Nathaniel Scott Barnett

Nathaniel, you would have been 25 years old today (in the USA, it is still July 4th). That is hard for me to imagine, you being 25! I wonder  how you would have been? I figure much the same--full of life, always making plans to do something, and making each day count! You had so much wisdom about what was REALLY important in life, and I am thankful for that. I have no words to explain the emptiness you left behind but I take comfort that you are in a much better place than this wicked old world. I believe some day I will see you again and you are going to run and greet me with that big smile that I remember so well. Happy Birthday, Nathaniel!

Love and missing you always,
Mom 

June 7, 2015...Nathaniel, you are gone 7 long years today. Most days are better than they were at the beginning, but days like today never seem to get any easier. There are really no words to explain how tough it was to bury you. For those that know, I don't have to explain, and to the others, I cannot. I do not know what I would do without the Lord; it is so hard already. My comfort is that you are in a better place where there is no diabetes and none of the evil things of this world. I believe you are in the arms of a God that loves you even more than I. I believe some day I WILL see you again and we are going to be so happy to see each other on that day. I am sorry for all my failures and I hope that I did some things right. You are not forgotten. Lots of people have remembered you today and have prayed for our family, that we could make it through this hard time. Even though I am more used to it being there, the hole in my heart for you is the same; some things never change. Today, I am 7 years closer to seeing you again. I long to see you again!

Love and missing you always,
Mom 

Nathaniel, I am sorry I am late on the post for this angelversary. You are not forgotten! Some days we just get through the best we can and your angelversary days are some of those. This is July 4th, what would have been your 24th birthday and it has not been easy either. How I wish things could have been different and you were still here; some things God alone knows.

I am posting a picture I took today of your memory garden. Your old jon boat is in the background of the picture. Your dad planted a red bud tree the year you left us, a tree to replace the old mulberry where you played and worked so often. You left a huge empty spot in our hearts.

Love and missing you always,
Mom

Nathaniel, you would have been 24 years old today. I do not understand why I am here, still having birthdays, and you are forever 17. Our house is empty, our farm is empty, and there is a hole in my heart that is just as empty as the day you left. I did pretty good today I thought, but then as the day wore on, it got worse. My comfort is that I believe that heaven is a wonderful place and I believe you are there--far better off than any of us here. My heart will be fixed some day, just not here.

Happy Birthday in heaven, my son. 

Love and missing you always,
Mom 

Nathaniel, you would be 23 today. I have tried to not be too sad today, because I know you were not much for sadness. You took whatever life threw at you and seemed to make the best of it. So many people have remembered you today and that is a comfort to my heart. I know you loved the 4th of July and it was so fitting for you to be born on this day. I long for the BIG celebration in Heaven when we see each other again. Happy Birthday, my son!

Love and missing you always,
Mom